♔ time heals everything, flashback hurts.

one step to success.

2012-02-11T20:44:00.001+08:00

I'm back from camp! Quite awesome one but i still prefer Sec2 camp :)
Ok, i will only blog about my level camp once my teachers upload the pictures. I don't want my post to be wordy!

HAPPY 18TH MONTHSARY DARLING BOY ♥♥♥

thanks for everything that you gave me, including your heart & i will always love you like how you do :*
i'm being able to see a future with you.

Girl's night, we all cried.

2012-02-05T16:47:00.003+08:00

Yesterday & Today(Midnight)

By looking at the title, yes, you will know the day ain't good for us. Went J8 to meet Leanne at about 6plus. Walked around aimlessly. Went to do sticker stamp, bought Chip 'n' Dale instead of hellokitty as its oos :( & if i insist on getting the hellokitty sticker, i must wait at least 6months! wtf? :( But chip 'n' dale is still as cute as hellokitty, hehehe :3 Afterwards headed to Artbox and some creative corner & i did this hellokitty with Leanne's accompany, so sweet of her ♥♥

forever lovely ☺

Afterwards went buy KOI, and Leanne told me something interesting about the word "KOI" :B Sat down at some seats near MRT station and wait for Yiwen to arrive :D Yiwen arrived about 9plus and headed back to Yishun. Yiwen suggested to go her place and slack, so we agreed and went to her place. Spammed pictures and had h2h talks, sharing our love stories :b & bad moments happened there too :( Cabbed home about nearly 3am.

darling xx

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☺☺

(after i cried)

Leanne.
Hi darling, thanks for being there last night! I'm feeling much better now :) & hope both of you are alright and really wish he won't say those words that hurt you again! Think positive ok!! & do take care yourself, drink more water & rest more(don't talk too much :B)! Get well soon ♥♥ I love you :* See ya tomorrow! ^v^

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Yiwen.
Hi dear, thanks for being there last night! at the worst moment of your life, THINK POSITIVE that's all you need to do! Hope both of you are alright and really wish he won't hurt you with all the actions he do again. Feeling really bad inside? Cry it all out and you will feel much better, trust me :B Do take care yourself & meet up again ok! I love you :*

It's really hurt when you doubt on me, and you not trusting me. It's not the first time too. I'm sorry for staying out late and making you worried. Your words and actions hurts but you still deserve the best from me. I love you always :*

Off to pack my camp stuffs, camp is 3days away :(

I just want you to know that you deserve the best.

2012-02-04T17:17:00.003+08:00

Babyboy ☺

Yesterday, rushed home after school to prepare and head down to darling boy's crib! Waited for darling boy to prepare, he took about 1hr 30mins to prepare!! Afterwards head down to cwp instead of amk for our movie! But still, we missed our 3.45pm show so we bought the 6.30pm show, watched "We Not Naughty" :D We both bought a big angry pig for babyboy & i bought something for valentine too! & not forgetting ...

THIS!, went into kiddy palace and saw this cute little hellokitty. I said i want to buy and darling boy straight away bought it for me, hehe love you ♥♥!

Wanted to take neoprint but timezone is under renovation :( Walked around at cwp & finally it's 6.15pm. Headed back to Cathay & line up to take our food and drink! Laughing away during the show. Show ended about 9pm. Bought darling boy to buy my masks and he asked "Why you need so many!?" "You need to slim down instead! HAHA" -_- URGH, I KNOW LA!!! Bought masks and darling boy bought happy meal for me again :B & I GOT A NEW TOY hehehe ^v^ Afterwards head back to darling boy's crib & had dinner and stayed overnight :D Spamming polaroid with darling boy!! Darelyn helped us to take 2 pictures and darling boy made weird ugly face and made her laugh like mad girl, HAHA.

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☺☺

LYZ Darnerl's ♔

i know i very short TT

that's the reason why i love him ♥

the memories we shared.

2012-02-01T23:38:00.004+08:00

On 31st Jan 2012. Charmaine Angeline Sinli Huimin Caroline Shijia Cecilia Qianru & Me shared money and bought cupcakes for Ms Chan's belated mini birthday celebration in school! Those mini cupcake is awesome! Delicious!, especially the cream! :D So each and everyone of us had a cupcake too.

Selling this, Leopard Cross Fringe Top(Black) @ $10.

Bought a week ago, brand new!

Picture credits to: style-bandits@bs.com

Looking for, Hellokitty Calendar Toy! Macdonald's happy meal 2012.

I missed it out :( Really want it so i will have the full collection after this week!

WILLING TO PAY.

can't wait for friday hehe, our f.i.r.s.t movie together after being together for 17months!!! hopefully eveything goes right with the plan! love you bb xx

true friends, fake friends, everywhere.

2012-01-29T22:57:00.072+08:00

Darling boy, Angeline, Charmaine, Sinli, Caroline, Huimin, Qianru, Cecilia, Weijie & Zexin came over to my place to bai nian, have steamboat & to gamble! ^v^ Had steamboat for dinner, afterwards gamble!! That's moment was the most epic and memorable one!! :D All of them headed home about 8plus except darling boy as there's school tomorrow. Headed to Macdonald with darling boy and he bought a set of happy meal for me with new hellokitty toy ☺☺!! finally met darling boy and h2h talk with him after a week! He's the only one who i can really share everything ♥♥. Headed home about 10plus after sending darling boy to the mrt & prepare for school tomorrow!

Yesterday's 28th Jan 2012.

At weeyeow's crib!

huimin xx

charmaine xx

Weeyeow's dog!

♥☺♥☺

Meet Charmaine at her crib & wait for her to get ready and head out! Headed down to yishun to meet Huimin, Weijie, Zexin, Daniel and Francis! Next headed down to woodlands, had lunch together at Mega Food Mall and afterward walked to Weeyeow's crib! Suppose to go over and bai nian but his parents last minute went out, so slacked at his place about 3hours. All of us left his place about 3plus. Charmaine Huimin Zexin Weijie and I alighted at yishun, separate way with the boys and we headed down to Angeline's crib, we meet Sinli there too!! :D Bai nian & spammed photos :D

angeline ☺

sinli ☺

charmaine ☺

About 5-6plus left Angeline's crib and bused over to Charmaine's crib :D Bai nian & gamble!! ^v^ Had dinner over there too! Stayed till 8plus & afterwards all of us head to Sinli's crib to bai nian & gamble, hehehehe :D Headed home about 9-10plus with Charmaine! Had fun today xx

Charmaine's 15th!

2012-01-25T23:55:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY CHARMAINE ♥

Photos with Fazirah Sinli Me & herself :D

Cards from Yifei Cecilia Shijia Huimin Gabby Angeline Caroline Qianru & Me.

Study hard, Play hard, Smile always ♥!

☺ CNY!!!

2012-01-25T23:20:00.003+08:00

(Yesterday's)

DAY TWO.

Grandma's crib(Dad side).

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hehe guess which one is me!! xx

sarah xx

大姑!

my cousin got this freaking chio iphone cover!! ♥♥

Sihui!

austin xx

bro xx

mummy ng xx

nelson xx

mickey tim

mickey bro

see the different!

Back: Me Nelson Sihui Peiyu Xinwei Sarah Zhiwei.
Front: Yilin Timothy Austin.

sarah me austin xx

☺ CNY!!!

2012-01-23T22:54:00.002+08:00

DAY ONE.

Grandma's crib(Mum side) & 1 relative house!

bbg ♥♥

fatty boy! the most irritating one.

chicken little ♥♥

Jiahao!

Jiajing!

3 xy! Xinyi, Xinyin & Xinyan :D

bro ♥♥

Mummy Ng ♥♥

Shu Zhen ♥

♥ my bbg, never failed to make me feel loved :D

Awesome day!

2012-01-21T22:22:00.004+08:00

An awesome day out with leanne :) Meet her about 12plus inside of the mrt cabin, that's the awkward moment *silent* but after awhile not that awkward anymore! hehe :) . So we headed down to our first stop, 313. Walked shop to shop, nothing caught our eyes :( Decided to have our lunch @ LJS, and we shared sharing our love stories & gossip! ^v^ hehehehe.

After lunch, walked to H&M and a mall, which i forgotten what's the name of it. Still ... nothing caught our eyes! :( Decided to walk down to FEP, ok, that's far! Reached there, within 10mins, something caught our eyes hehe!! Walked around but not many pretty clothes too :( Afterwards head down to flea @ scape. Very fast, something caught my eyes ^v^

Went to shop around, still nothing much :( WHERE ARE ALL THE PRETTY TOPS!! Bought 2tops only TT Head to had Artease, first time drinking it, not bad :/ but still prefer KOI :3 Slacked awhile, walked around cine as it was raining.

About 7pm left cine & head down to bugis! Saw rainbow while waiting for traffic, damn beautiful <3.

Single rainbow.
Leanne: I never see before double rainbow!
Double rainbow.
Me: There's double rainbow!!! omg so beautiful!!

So leanne had her first time seeing double rainbow with me, hehehe ♥♥
Shop @ Bugis street, wanted to buy darling boy a top, but scared he doesn't like it so in the end didn't buy anything ;x About 8plus-9, we trained back home. Leanne alight first and i headed to darling boy's crib to meet him for awhile!! About 12plus took the last train home!

ok, goodnight!!

Seven months ago; Know your limits.

2012-01-20T22:44:00.004+08:00

This post will be wordy, yes, WORDY.
Dislike it or not, it's up to you. Hate me after all? Thanks and f*ck off :)

It is now seven months since the incident happened, but i will never forget it. Indeed it still comes back to haunt me in my dreams. The incident impacted and changed my life. I regretted having it. I regretted not controlling. I regretted trusting all of you. After seven freaking months, i still remember EVERYTHING. I saw it with my own eyes and your "friend" looking at me and say "Oh f*ck, gg.com!" What still can change? I really don't know. Everytime i look at the pictures in my albums, especially that album. I will think of that incident. Now we're not friends but I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER WHAT SHE DID TO ME. Never though she would do all this to me, never though we will end our friendship so easily when we shared so many ups and downs together before. I lost trusts in all of them and it's hard to gain back trust. I can't help myself to forgive her and forget about it. I WANT TO FORGET BUT NO FORGIVE BUT I JUST CAN'T DO BOTH :( You caused all this, you caused misery to my life, you cause unhappiness to my life, thank you so much. Are you happy that you caused all this to my life? Are you happy seeing me crying everyday? But let me tell you this, KARMA will hit you back soon.

your friendship ended due to blind love trap he fall in? HAHA, joke of the year? IF IT'S A STRONG FRIENDSHIP IT WON'T END SO EASILY -.- THINK AND REFLECT about what YOU HAD DONE TO ME and make my life changed so much & then come talk all these shits. Like SERIOUSLY you have no rights to say anything since THAT day onwards.

OUR FRIENDSHIP ENDED B'COS YOU FUCKING BETRAYED ME, UNDERSTAND? :D

If you're reading this post, i have something to tell you and let you know. READ CAREFULLY.
1. I will fight for what i believe is important.
2. I will go head on to get what i want.
3. I'm here brutallu honest and straightforward and don't care if you like it or not.
4. I hope one day you will feel the pain that you gave me.
5. Can be possessive when i need to.

6. If i forgive, i'll never forget.
7. I get what i want.
8. One thing for sure, he will always love me.
9. He's my husband.
10. He's going to marry me in 9years time.
11. He belongs to his parents and me.

Remember this. I don't care what relationship or friendship you had with him before, that's the past ok. Stop "dreaming" about it. Now, the person/people who he should treat like a princess and be there for her when she's down is HIS MOM, HIS SISTERS AND ME.

I hate you, bye.

A day at KTPH.

2012-01-16T23:06:00.001+08:00

Great day in school! Fun Joy & Laughter! ^v^ Gossip during POA lessons, chit-chat during MT lessons, slacking during SS lessons, HAHA! Alright, this is not the right way to spend my day in school :( Today didn't do much work & there's only 1 homework!!! After school, headed to KTPH for subway with the two girls on top! (Sinli & Charmaine) Slacked at KTPH for 4 freaking hours? :) Afterwards headed to northpoint. Sigh ... want to buy so many stuffs but can't bear to spend the money :( Poorgirl97 now!

Went to Minitoons, bought a pink rabbit fan @ 6bux only! No hellokitty :( & i'm bringing to school tomorrow as MY CLASS ROOM IS DAMN STUFFY(sp?) and RECENTLY THE WEATHER IS DAMN HOT!!! That we can't even focus during lessons! :( After buying the fan, walked around northpoint & headed home at about 7plus! :)

Sleeping early tonight even though it's a late day tomorrow. I'M GOD DAMN TIRED :(

Goodnight people!!!

Run after your dreams, no matter how tough things may get along the way, as there's always rainbow after the rain!

2012-01-15T23:26:00.006+08:00

Weekends gone. Spending my weekends at home cleaning my room & doing school homeworks! Yes, i've to give in more than 100% of attention during CHEM's lessons. But to be frank, i can't, b'cos there's some freaking ass shouting out answers and it irritates me ALOT during lessons. Sigh ... maybe getting a tutor instead :( But i really hope they will see this and they will shut their mouth up during lessons, no offence* NOT ONLY ME WHO FEELS THAT! Finished all my homework but sadly i didn't manage to head out this weekend to get somemore clothes and bottoms for CNY :( pretty sad! But next week, maybe heading out to town with darling boy!!! ^v^ Ohya, I CAN'T WAIT FOR CNY!!! I'M GETTING AWESOME TTHINGS AFTER CNY ^v^

School tomorrow! Feeling sad and happy. Feeling sad b'cos i have to wake up @ 6am to prepare and bring my cousin to school before i head to school myself :( I usually wake up @ 7am for school T_T & feeling happy b'cos my pig, sokwei, is coming back to school tomorrow! Like a finally after 11/12days, she's coming back to school!!! She have to catch up with all of us, she's lagging behind!! haha :)

when they're still friends/close friends/best friends:

'You are important to me' , 'Really appreciate what you have done for me' , 'I'll never forget you' , 'Through out all those tiffs I had with you only makes our friendships stronger' , 'I've such great friend like you' , 'I'm glad to have you as my close friend/best friend' , 'We will never drift!' , 'I love those time i spent together with you very much' , 'We always laugh together, if got anything bad happened, will we share and solve it together' , 'We always go out together and never failed to had countless fun together' .

Few months later, all of them drifted. & one of them start thinking ...

ARE THEY ALL LIES? ;/ Can anyone answer this?? #basedontruestory

CHERISH EVERYONE BEFORE THEY'RE GONE.

Goodnight!!

seventeen monthsary.

2012-01-11T23:16:00.002+08:00

seventeen monthsary ♥

Had school in the morning & school ended at 2pm! Darling boy suppose to fetch me from school! But he slept till 2pm :@ . Head down to darling boy's crib alone :( wait for him to get up and prepare, i'm damn hungry but he spent about one hour 30mins to prepare?! About 5plus bused down to cwp. Walked round and round, just for fun! Bought a hellokitty file for myself & angry bird for babyboy :) Wanted to surprise darling boy with a present/something that he wanted but in the end we can't play with it so i didn't buy it :( Wanted to take neoprint with darling boy but i'm wearing uniform T_T so walked about 5-10rounds in cwp. Afterwards, bought some snacks mac kfc back to darling boy's crib! At night, i'm feeling damn tired while doing homework and i just feel like sleeping at darling boy's bed and not going home after doing finish my homework but there's school tmr :( #lifesucks Finished my homework and rest a while, about 10plus bused home!! We didn't really celebrate our monthsary as it's pretty normal, unlike 1year or 2year? haha! Went home > bathe > called darling boy and sleep!

Gdnight people! :)

Memories remains.

2012-01-08T23:44:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, stayed at home for the whole morning and afternoon. About 8plus went over to Charmaine's crib to meet her and Sinli :) About 10plus-11plus, headed home! Today, meet Huishan in the afternoon about 3plus & bused to Queenways. On the way there, we had h2h talks and talked some school stuffs too. I realized, everyone's life is changing, yes, EVERYONE'S. Huishan & I drifted alot after i quited basketball as my cca :( Went to Queenways to walk and Huishan bought her basketball's shoes, afterward had lunch there. About 5plus, bused back to woodlands. Went up to popular to change my Chem workbook as i bought the wrong one ><. But there's no stocks again :( Other outlets doesn't have it too! I think i'm going to change it to my English textbook instead. As both of them keep on no stocks in other outlet and school bookshop. Good news is English textbook is coming in Weds!!! Hope i can get it before those aunties get it for their childrens, hehe!! Alright, i haven't get my ledger pad, black ring file, pockets file, new pencil case. omg T_T Afterwards, bought kfc for darling boy and head to his crib. Babyboy is damn damn awesome and cute, he never failed to brighten up my day!!! hehehehe, everyone of you out there should meet him one day!!! Alright, school's starting again tomorrow!!! :( Sleep early! &, ALL THE BEST TO THOSE WHO GETTING THEIR O LEVEL RESULTS TOMORROW!!!

Have an awesome week ahead!!

It's friday! Finished first week of school.

2012-01-06T23:34:00.000+08:00

Hi again!!!
IT'S FREAKING FIRDAY TODAY!!! WOOHOO ~ How's your first week in school? :) Mine was pretty good! This year, i've to put in more effort in MATHS CHEM PHY AND SS. Can't afford to fail any subjects, just a pass will do! Mom and darling boy don't expect me to score everything for A1, they don't give me stress, as always they will say, 'You have done your best but i believe you can do better.' After all, i kind disappoint them :( &, now i'm serious! I'M REALLY GOING TO STUDY HARD AND GET INTO THE FREAKING POLY(s) IN SG, NO ITE FOR ME!!! gonna make my bro(s) lose face ;p hehehehe. Need people to teach me CHEM PHY AND SS :( Still thinking whether should i take private tuition at home. If i'm taking, i'll get my primary's school private tuition teacher ^.^ As said, Work for Reward, Reward for work! Gonna reward myself big time if i did well(get the score i targeted) for my CA(s) & SA(s) ^^ Anyw, had an awesome afternoon with darling boy & babyboy, two pretty cute darlings ♥♥

DARLING BOY ♥♥♥

BABYBOY ♥♥

Both of them always brighten up my day!! :*
Alright, ending my post here, goodnight! Have a good weekend :)

Work for reward, Reward for work.

2012-01-05T23:48:00.004+08:00

Hi everybody!!!

Had my very first lesson of PE and POA today! Taken height & weight during PE lesson and played basketball with Angeline and Huimin. SRSLY NEED TO GROW TALLER AND LOSE WEIGHT :( POA was alright, can't wait to start learning it!! Have been doing maths homework for the fast 2days, i find it quite ok but sometimes i don't understand the questions >< &, really need to practise and remember alot for maths if i want to score an A1 for my tests and exams :( Oh, i really want to share this so badly, i bet my classmates too! EVERYDAY AFTER 12PM, MOST OF MY CLASSMATES AND I WILL FEEL DAMN HOT/WARM EVEN ALL THE FANS IS ON! TEACHERS FEEL IT TOO! OMG CAN DIE :( ALWAYS 12PM TILL END OF SCHOOL, WHY!?!?! & OTHER CLASS HAVE EXTRA FANS, WE DON'T HAVE, #FOREVERBIAS Really hope that the school will help to install extra fans or put an aircon in our classroom! ^^ More homeworks coming up! Proper lessons starts next week = Need more energy for school!! Ok, i'm prepared! :) Haha, & i can't wait for friday to end, i love weekends! ^-^

Heading to bed now, goodnight!!!

Day 3 of 366.

2012-01-03T23:04:00.000+08:00

Hi! How's your first day in school? :) Mine was bored! :(
In the morning, went to Charmaine's crib to meet her & she's rushing like mad girl, haha! Reached school at 7.31pm, 4mins more and we're late. But teacher caught us and said we're late. Haha, joke of the day. But in the end, another teacher said, we're not late as we still have 4mins more and we can go and assemble in the plaza with others. Ms Boon & Ms Chan is my form/co.form teacher! Two young pretty lady ^^Maths teacher remain the same, Ms Tan. POA teacher is Mr Chua, Y NOT MR LOONG :( English teacher, Ms Samatha. Chem teacher is Ms Boon. Okay, that's all i remember, hehe!! After school had lunch with Charmaine at 807, afterwards went home. Had 2hrs nap afterwards meet Charmaine again & went for 2-3hrs jogging and some exercise!!! ^^ Head to her house afterwards and went home @ 10plus!!

Ok!! I'm going to bathe now and off to sleep, goodnight people!!! :*

It's school tomorrow!

2012-01-02T23:46:00.001+08:00

School starts tomorrow! Are you excited? Are you ready for school? Are you still in holiday mood? I'm 80% ready for school but the mood is not right there yet! I've yet to get somemore books & items for school. Bought new school bag myself. Getting my new school shoes tomorrw night. And ya, i dyed my hair black :( But it's okay, i believe the color will fade very soon ^-^ Really hope, everyone can get along well next year & i'm looking forward to Sec3 camp!!! hehe. So, tomorrow will be the first day i'm in school without my darling boy staring at me during lessons and me staring back at him ;x , *some people know it* haha! Just hope everything will goes smoothly!!!

Ok, till here, i'm heading to bed now, goodnight!!

HAPPY 2012!!!

2012-01-01T13:36:00.012+08:00

Hi everybody!
Yesterday afternoon's mood got ruined badly. Waste my time only -_- About 3plus, went over to darling boy's crib to wake him up! Got really pissed off and went to the toilet and cry ;x Darling boy finally woke up and prepare while i talked with darelyn and settle some things for our blogshop. About 5plus, darling boy finally done and off to Sures's crib! Before we head to Sures's crib, we bought birthday cake & drinks! After awhile, the rest of them came. The surprise kinda failed ;/ but after all, aleast we all had fun! :) From 6-10plus, all the way watching scoccer and Sures's mom cooked dinner! Awesome, i love the prawn, yum ~ Boys left at 9plus, left Pal Darling boy and Me. Continue watching scoccer till 10plus. After we left Sures's crib, we run to the MRT station.

It's Sures's sweet 16th birthday!!!

On our way to Khatib, the train being a b*tch and stopped twice!!! Reached Khatib, met Chris and trained down to Raffles Place. Reached Raffles Place about 11.55pm. Come out from the train, 3boys run like mad boys. I run with them too, xiasuay max :( Other people also running to the singapore river just to see the fireworks!!! reached there, just right 10secs left. The fireworks is damn awesome!!! Darling boy is just right beside me ♥♥♥ hehe.

**Ignore my darling boy's face, HAHAHAHA!

omg we're like sweating :( Afterwards walked around the streets to find food & bought heineken. Didn't have chomp comp for dinner/supper T_T Bought spraying foam & all of us running through boatquay, spraying foam at each other!!! ^-^ Walked about 1hr+ and about 2plus in the morning, we trained home. Overnight at darling boy's crib with Pal & Chris. Before darling boy & i head home, we bought heineken again & some other drinks. Pal & Chris reached and played xbox through out the night, darling boy dota through out the night & i fall asleep about 4-5plus ;x hehehehe, not drunk! i'm just tired :) After all, it's a fun laughter and a memorable day for me!

Wishing everybody a good year ahead!!! :)